February 19, 2007
Monday
Robert had his worst night so far last night. He was in so much pain from the sores in his mouth and then on top of that he got sick to his stomach. Of course he blamed my homemade liquid diet, so now its nothing but Ensure and liquids. He was begging me to take him to the hospital due to his extreme pain. I got some pain medicine and nausea medicine down his feeding tube. That did help a little. Thru all the pain he was a trooper and went on to radiation and then we saw the radiation doctor. I was really scared Robert had pneumonia, but the doctor said Roberts lungs are clear, it is just the chemo and radiation doing what they are suppose to by killing everything good and bad.. The doctor said Robert has thrush. Melissa you are exactly right, the doctor has prescribed all those medications you named and they are in liquid form so we put them right in the feeding tube. You can not know how much your and Chris’s experience in fighting this ugly beast has helped us. I hope and pray the mouthwash medicine helps. Dr. Kurley said “the chemo is what is kicking Robert’s butt right now, but by Friday it will be the radiation”, which means we have some trying days and nights ahead of us.
Monday
Robert had his worst night so far last night. He was in so much pain from the sores in his mouth and then on top of that he got sick to his stomach. Of course he blamed my homemade liquid diet, so now its nothing but Ensure and liquids. He was begging me to take him to the hospital due to his extreme pain. I got some pain medicine and nausea medicine down his feeding tube. That did help a little. Thru all the pain he was a trooper and went on to radiation and then we saw the radiation doctor. I was really scared Robert had pneumonia, but the doctor said Roberts lungs are clear, it is just the chemo and radiation doing what they are suppose to by killing everything good and bad.. The doctor said Robert has thrush. Melissa you are exactly right, the doctor has prescribed all those medications you named and they are in liquid form so we put them right in the feeding tube. You can not know how much your and Chris’s experience in fighting this ugly beast has helped us. I hope and pray the mouthwash medicine helps. Dr. Kurley said “the chemo is what is kicking Robert’s butt right now, but by Friday it will be the radiation”, which means we have some trying days and nights ahead of us.
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Robert, I know this is not the best of times and is like a living hell but I hope you can try this for me. Try to imagine the last time you went riding on the 4wheeler and think about what it sounded like as you started it, and how it sounded as you rode it thru the trails you love so much. Think about what each part of the trail looked like and what other sounds you heard and what you saw along the way. Imagine how it felt for the wind to be blowing in your face and how the fresh air smelled. Imagine who all was there and try really hard to imagine the laughter you heard, your own and those with you and think of the conversations you had about the riding. Try to keep all of those thoughts going in your mind and try really hard to imagine the next time you are out riding and imagine it to be as good or better than all of the other rides. Just keep taking that wonderful trip over and over in your mind and before you know it you will really be out on that trail riding. I am waiting for my turn to go out there with you guys and I want to be sure you know the trails well so keep that fresh in your mind. Robert I have had some hypnosis from Larry when I have been very sore fromj pulled back muscles and truly when I would let my mind wander to the more pleasnat things and when I was able to focus on them it would be like I was truly off somewhere else and truly those thoughts helped with my pain a lot. Think of the trails! Stay on the trails !
Also know I am praying more for you each day. Hang in there big guy.
Luv Ya Lisa
Judy & Robert, truly these are trying times for you. You will get through this and be much stronger for it. As difficult and impossible as it may be, the good Lord will never give us more of a challenge than we can handle. Robert, take solice in the fact that you have one hell of a wife who loves you with all that she is. You are extremely fortunate and blessed. This is a struggle that you both will win. It's hard, is sucks and seems so terribly unfair, but the day will come when you will look back and remember, "Wow, we did it!" You are inspirations to us all. Keep up the fight guys!
"Be strong and of good courage. Do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Jushua 1:9
Greg
Hey Robertoooo!
Another day.... and your hanging in there. I know this is frustrating...and I know you want to be done with this...and you will. Just think, how much time has passed since you began this journey, and yesterday is behind you. Keep your head up, and think about the good things to come. I'm sure you are saying "yeah, easy for you to say", but just imagine it this way....
You're out with your pack of 4 wheeler buddies and your having the time of your life. It's a beautiful day, you can smell the trees in the air, and the breeze flowing across your face as you ride..makes you want to go faster and faster. Your in front and you glance over your shoulder and see Mick, just behind you. And farther in the distance, you see the rest of us...lolly- gagging around bringing up the rear. You see a trail, and look back and see that Mick see's it too. And the look on both of your faces says "heck yeah, go for it". And with a firm grip, you turn onto the trail. Man this is a good one. Steep hills, lots of creeks and rocks. Perfect! You get so excited you loose track of time and before you know it...you've lost Mick. You stop, listen for him and don't hear a thing. Just the wind blowing and the water running swiftly past you. Thinking for just a second, I don't want to go back... and without hesitation...you tighten your gloves and zip your jacket and off you go...saying...I'll catch up with them later. As you ride, the clouds begin to pass overhead. The sun slipping behind them and the shadows beginning to fade the view of your trail. You're having the time of your life...wishing everyone could see the breathtaking views. Your totally in your own world as you round a corner and at a glance see a dear running across the river. Captivating your attention, you watch and forget what you are doing and in an instant you see, your trail is gone. In slow motion you feel the artic cat sliding uncontrollably down the hill. Your instincts are to lean into the hill and you do but it doesn't stop. In your mind, your saying..."oh no, this can't be happening". And as if time has stopped, everything comes to a complete hault and you hear..silence. Your eyes are open, you can hear your own heart beating, and you feel the air moving in and out of your chest, and suddenly as if someone snapped their fingers... the water is flowing past you, the birds are singing in the distance, the wind is howling through the trees. And you look up and there is Mick. Standing above you on a big boulder. His hand is extended to you and you hear him saying "Hey Man! What in the hell happened to you? Where did you go?" And you reach up and take his hand and feel him pulling you up and back on top of the rock. You dust yourself off. And as you look up over the hill, you see us all ...we're all there.... looking down at you. And you smile as the sun begins to shine once again..and you say..."I'm not sure what happened. I was riding along having the time of my life and all of a sudden...my path was gone." Uncertainty and unfamiliarity was all around me, and I look up and there you all are....waiting on me to get back up and ride again".
Robert, life is uncertain. Sometimes our paths are clear cut..easy to follow, and some....are difficult and seemingly impassable. But, fortunately we have to trust those that extend their hands to give us a lift and trust that one day we will be back on track and running full throttle ahead. You gotta believe....
Now, for the rest of the story...you had to hear it the rest of the day.. how the MadJap had to use his fancy winch to pull the Artic Cat from it's perilous doom. And of course, the tribe ribed you constantly about it....but the moral of the story...the Artic Cat...purred once more!!!!
:)
Dang, I bet ya'll thought I was through. Ha! I've always been known as a "little" winded. :)
This is for my sister! Judy Judy!
I have to say this to you... You are absolutely..doing a marvelous job. I am so proud of you. And I know Robert's strength comes from you. You hang in there. Keep YOUR chin up too. And remember, take care of yourself too. Ask for help when you need it...don't hesitate. I love you Judy Judy!
Judy, hello this is Tonya (Lively) Mewbourn. I spoke to your Mom today and she filled me in a little on Robert's condition. Iam so sorry to hear that he is not feeling well. I cannot imagine all the things that ya'll have been going thru but how refreshing it is to see how much you love each other and how strong your faith is. I hope that things get better soon and if there's anything that we can do, please don't hesitate to call!! We will keep both of you in our prayers and will add Robert to our prayer chain at church. Lots of Love and we hope to see yall soon. You can contact me at mtmewbourn@aol.com
Beloved Robert ahd JUDY Believe in happy endings. Benny & Mom
Judy & Robert,
I am truly sorry that you are having to deal with such hard times right now. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. You both are an inspiration and a testament to true and unwavering love.
Matthew
Dear Judy and Robert,
Reading your blog took me back thru the situation with Chris. My heart goes out to you. I will be keeping you in my prayers.
As I always tell my grand-children, God didn't keep Daniel from the Lion's den, He shut the lion's mouth, He didn't keep the Hebrew children from the fiery furnace, but He didn't let anything burn on them while in the fire but the ropes that bound them. Only Chris can truly tell you how he overcame because he knows exactly what you are going thru and Melissa can relate to your wife.
I pray that God keeps His hand on you and guides you thru the rough places.
I can relate more to what your Mother would be going thru, since I'm Chris' Mom, as I said my prayers are with you and all of your family thru this battle. You will win!!!
Good morning, my Hochatown buddies. I hope today is better for you both. You are in my thoughts and prayers, as always and I wish I could be there with you. If you feel up to it today, drive by the lake and river and campsites and see the beauty all around you and breathe in that fresh air. Keep looking up for these bad days will pass and good times are waiting down the road. I love you both.
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